today was a hard day. it's one of those days where i can't think of a thankful thing right off the bat. it's one of those days where you really have to dig to see the beauty of the day. and archeology was never my subject.
amidst a monotonous and busy day, juxtaposed with an emotional and pensive night - i would have to say the best part of my day was when i watched an episode of The Voice as i did my work. it was an hour and a half of my day in which i felt less like i was sitting my cubicle and more like i was in the comfort of my own home.
and do you know what i'm thankful for today? talent. there is something truly beautiful and awe-inducing about seeing people with talent. after each performance, my mind buzzed with commentary i wanted to give like the esteemed judges. but more than that, my heart soared with every high note that was on point, with every flawless run, with each song that pierced me to my soul. seeing them sing reminded me of God's gifts and His own gift in me. there's no other word for talent other than a gift. we didn't earn it nor deserve it. we just received it. talent is amazing. i'm thankful to have witnessed it and to have been temporarily transcended out of my office and into beauty.
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Monday, October 27, 2014
Day 2 - lesson to dream
today - i went to my first guitar lesson! i had tried to teach myself guitar for months, but it was pretty unsuccessful. so one day, in the summer, i found a Living Social deal for 4 guitar lessons for cheap! and per my former roommate's advice - YOLO! - i bought it!
i was slightly nervous all day to go bc i was nervous that even with lessons, i wouldn't be able to catch on and i'd never learn to play. but after my first lesson, i'm excited to see where this will lead me! it's gonna be slow growing, but i don't care! i feel excited that i am at the beginning steps of a new skillset, a new experience, a new secret project, a new facet of myself. juxtaposed to having been in the same job for almost 3 years now, doing the same thing day in and day out, it feels so good to not know how to do something - to be challenged to use my brain in a way that's new and untraveled.
i hope that in 1 month, i will be able to play a song, be my own intrumentalist, and finally be one step closer to reaching taylor swift status. jk! hahaha... or am i? =D
so thankful for Living Social for helping me achieve one more dream on my bucket list!
i was slightly nervous all day to go bc i was nervous that even with lessons, i wouldn't be able to catch on and i'd never learn to play. but after my first lesson, i'm excited to see where this will lead me! it's gonna be slow growing, but i don't care! i feel excited that i am at the beginning steps of a new skillset, a new experience, a new secret project, a new facet of myself. juxtaposed to having been in the same job for almost 3 years now, doing the same thing day in and day out, it feels so good to not know how to do something - to be challenged to use my brain in a way that's new and untraveled.
i hope that in 1 month, i will be able to play a song, be my own intrumentalist, and finally be one step closer to reaching taylor swift status. jk! hahaha... or am i? =D
so thankful for Living Social for helping me achieve one more dream on my bucket list!
Day 1 - 100 Days of thankfulness
i'm ashamed to admit that for the past few months, i have been Miss Complain-y. it's no surprise to anyone who i've spoken to that i am unhappy with my job and all the negative products that have come with it. and sadly, i have changed. i have become a complainer. i generally try to keep my debbie downer side to just a select few who are entrusted with seeing all facets about me. but as of late, i have gone public. and i'm ashamed of it. so i've decided that i want to try to a mia-version of the 100 days of happiness project with my blog - 100 days of thankfulness. i will try to write a quick blog entry about something i am thankful for each day to remind myself that God throws me a bone every day - that i am not in such an awful state as i think i am - that things actually DO go well in my life - that my life is blessed.
so here goes!
today, i am thankful for a little boy - a 1 and half year baby - sy's nephew adam. i've known adam since he was about 8 months old (when sy and i began dating). and he is just the CUTEST little guy. every time i saw him, it was in a group setting in which sy's parents, his sister and brother-in-law, and sy and i were there. of the group, i was the person he knew the least. so whenever i saw him, he was most happy to see his family and i was a bit of a stranger. and while it always took time for him to warm up to me, he never had to warm up to everyone else. as he learned to talk, he began learning everyone's names - umma, abba, halmee (halmunee/grandma), habadah (harabujee/grandpa). he couldn't pronounce any S sounds, so he couldn't say sy nor samchoon (uncle). but when we asked him, "where's samchoon?", he would point at sy. but a little over a month ago, while playing with him, adam learned my name! and soon, he began saying it all the time! it was the most adorable thing i'd ever seen!
so today, as i ate lunch with adam and sy's family, he called me by name - mia! and as i played with him and talked with him, i realized that this little baby knows me. he knows my name. when we point to me and ask him "who's that?", he smiles and says mia. and i've never felt more special in my life than to be someone important enough in this baby's life to be known by him. he knows i am someone in this family that he doesn't see much, but he can count on seeing me from time to time. and apparently, when i'm not there, sometimes he calls out for me to look for me! it's a really special feeling to be known by a baby. a baby only cares for the important people in his/her life - and i am one of his. and i'm so thankful that he has welcomed me into his life.
i sang a song at church today that had lyrics like this:
You're a good, good Father - it's who You are
And I'm loved by you - it's who i am
i thought about how wonderful it is to be known to adam. and then i thought, how much more wonderful it is to be known by God. He knows my name. He knows who i am. He knows that i am special and important to His family. He calls my name and looks for me. i am loved by Him.
thank you adam for calling me by name. you'll never know how much it means to me. thank you Father for calling me by my name. i can never show You enough how much it means to me.
so here goes!
today, i am thankful for a little boy - a 1 and half year baby - sy's nephew adam. i've known adam since he was about 8 months old (when sy and i began dating). and he is just the CUTEST little guy. every time i saw him, it was in a group setting in which sy's parents, his sister and brother-in-law, and sy and i were there. of the group, i was the person he knew the least. so whenever i saw him, he was most happy to see his family and i was a bit of a stranger. and while it always took time for him to warm up to me, he never had to warm up to everyone else. as he learned to talk, he began learning everyone's names - umma, abba, halmee (halmunee/grandma), habadah (harabujee/grandpa). he couldn't pronounce any S sounds, so he couldn't say sy nor samchoon (uncle). but when we asked him, "where's samchoon?", he would point at sy. but a little over a month ago, while playing with him, adam learned my name! and soon, he began saying it all the time! it was the most adorable thing i'd ever seen!
so today, as i ate lunch with adam and sy's family, he called me by name - mia! and as i played with him and talked with him, i realized that this little baby knows me. he knows my name. when we point to me and ask him "who's that?", he smiles and says mia. and i've never felt more special in my life than to be someone important enough in this baby's life to be known by him. he knows i am someone in this family that he doesn't see much, but he can count on seeing me from time to time. and apparently, when i'm not there, sometimes he calls out for me to look for me! it's a really special feeling to be known by a baby. a baby only cares for the important people in his/her life - and i am one of his. and i'm so thankful that he has welcomed me into his life.
i sang a song at church today that had lyrics like this:
You're a good, good Father - it's who You are
And I'm loved by you - it's who i am
i thought about how wonderful it is to be known to adam. and then i thought, how much more wonderful it is to be known by God. He knows my name. He knows who i am. He knows that i am special and important to His family. He calls my name and looks for me. i am loved by Him.
thank you adam for calling me by name. you'll never know how much it means to me. thank you Father for calling me by my name. i can never show You enough how much it means to me.
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
disorder
tonight i thought about the word disorder.
DISORDER.
dis - order.
what a terrible word it is. to take order and say that it is no longer in order. it is out of order.
how can we assign this word to people? you have a disorder. you are out of order. you don't work. you are broken.
i think we as a human race forget sometimes how harsh our words are. that if we back it up as a scientific term, then it's okay to use these harsh words to define something or someone.
you are not broken. you are in need of repair, but you are not a dis -anything-. you are a living, breathing, beautiful God-hand-crafted being - full of love and hope and potential.
DISORDER.
dis - order.
what a terrible word it is. to take order and say that it is no longer in order. it is out of order.
how can we assign this word to people? you have a disorder. you are out of order. you don't work. you are broken.
i think we as a human race forget sometimes how harsh our words are. that if we back it up as a scientific term, then it's okay to use these harsh words to define something or someone.
you are not broken. you are in need of repair, but you are not a dis -anything-. you are a living, breathing, beautiful God-hand-crafted being - full of love and hope and potential.
Friday, December 6, 2013
Christmas Wish List 2013!!
it's that time again! christmas is just around the corner and i get to daydream about all the things i wish for!
1. People Magazine Subscription (my last subscription ended... i miss it so much!)
GOT IT! =)
2. tickets to broadway shows
3. tickets to the ballet
4. tickets to the opera
5. BB Cream (i dunno why, but i can never justify buying this for myself. hahaha!) which brand is the best one to get??
GOT IT! =)
6. Gym Clothes - for some reason, if i have a cute workout outfit, it motivates me more to go work out. hahaha. i am ridiculous...
7. Hale & Hearty Gift Card - i LOVE this place. i eat here almost everyday.
8. black frame glasses - (there's a girl at my office who wears different glasses like different outfits. for some reason, i now want to do this too. hahaha!)
9. a tropical vacation! (i've never been anywhere tropical - except florida, but i don't think that counts)
10. the Classics (can't go wrong with these!)
- Crime & Punishment GOT IT! =)
- Silas Marner
- The Picture of Dorian Gray
- 1984
- A Tale of Two Cities
- Gulliver's Travels
- A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
11. a really girly tulle skirt (the one pictured here is from Loft) they're just so pretty!!!
GOT IT! =)
12. a cute laptop case (i've been using a towel. hahaha! how pathetic am i??)
GOT IT! =)
i think that's all i can think of for now. it's interesting to see how this year, i don't really want material things, but i want to experience more of the world and of life! i think i finally feel like i have enough "stuff" but i still feel so naive to the world and what's out there. well, i hope everyone is preparing to have a wonderful christmas season! make it a good one! =D
1. People Magazine Subscription (my last subscription ended... i miss it so much!)
GOT IT! =)
2. tickets to broadway shows
3. tickets to the ballet
4. tickets to the opera
5. BB Cream (i dunno why, but i can never justify buying this for myself. hahaha!) which brand is the best one to get??
GOT IT! =)
6. Gym Clothes - for some reason, if i have a cute workout outfit, it motivates me more to go work out. hahaha. i am ridiculous...
7. Hale & Hearty Gift Card - i LOVE this place. i eat here almost everyday.
8. black frame glasses - (there's a girl at my office who wears different glasses like different outfits. for some reason, i now want to do this too. hahaha!)
9. a tropical vacation! (i've never been anywhere tropical - except florida, but i don't think that counts)
10. the Classics (can't go wrong with these!)
- Crime & Punishment GOT IT! =)
- Silas Marner
- The Picture of Dorian Gray
- 1984
- A Tale of Two Cities
- Gulliver's Travels
- A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
11. a really girly tulle skirt (the one pictured here is from Loft) they're just so pretty!!!
GOT IT! =)
12. a cute laptop case (i've been using a towel. hahaha! how pathetic am i??)
GOT IT! =)
i think that's all i can think of for now. it's interesting to see how this year, i don't really want material things, but i want to experience more of the world and of life! i think i finally feel like i have enough "stuff" but i still feel so naive to the world and what's out there. well, i hope everyone is preparing to have a wonderful christmas season! make it a good one! =D
Friday, November 1, 2013
Begin Again
Taylor Swift - Begin Again
Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do
Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do
And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again
You said you never met one girl
Who had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do
And we walked down the block to my car and I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies that your family watches
Every single Christmas and I want to talk about that
And for the first time what's past is past
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do
Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do
And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did
I've been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again
You said you never met one girl
Who had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do
And we walked down the block to my car and I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies that your family watches
Every single Christmas and I want to talk about that
And for the first time what's past is past
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
under my umbrella
last friday, angie prayed over me and saw a vision. in her vision, she saw me and jesus happily playing on a playground. in my own head, i saw more details about her vision. we were frolicking in the grass; we were having a joyful and free-spirited time. the sun shined down us and everything was wonderful and perfect. but then the Enemy became jealous and wanted to ruin our fun time. so he sent dark, ominous clouds our way. and soon enough, thunder and lightning and rain poured down. i ran into a shelter, and gloomily watched out the window. i watched the ground become muddy where it had once been green and lush. i watched the playground become drenched and no longer playable. the blue sky was blocked and the cold rain had replaced all the warmth of the sun. i watched the rain drops blur my view of what had been an idyllic scene.
angie's vision ended there - and she said to me, "mia - jesus wants you to come out under an umbrella and not let a little rain get in the way." but i saw more. i took angie's words to heart - and in my continuation of her vision, i saw myself stepping out reluctantly into the storm with my umbrella. jesus was already standing out there under His own umbrella, and He beckoned me to come closer to Him with an outstretched hand.
when i stood beside Him, i put my hand in His, and He looked down and smiled at me. and at the same time, we let go of our umbrellas and let the rain pour down upon us. we stood there - hand in hand, with our other arms outstretched, completely getting soaked. and i enjoyed it. why? because i knew that jesus was inviting me to embrace the storm and let me find joy in it because we're together.
i know that i tend to run away from storms. i don't like getting wet. but what if i changed my perspective on storms? instead of fearing them, shying away from them - what if i found a way to enjoy them? then when the storms come, they won't be so bad - they'll be good.
angie's vision ended there - and she said to me, "mia - jesus wants you to come out under an umbrella and not let a little rain get in the way." but i saw more. i took angie's words to heart - and in my continuation of her vision, i saw myself stepping out reluctantly into the storm with my umbrella. jesus was already standing out there under His own umbrella, and He beckoned me to come closer to Him with an outstretched hand.
when i stood beside Him, i put my hand in His, and He looked down and smiled at me. and at the same time, we let go of our umbrellas and let the rain pour down upon us. we stood there - hand in hand, with our other arms outstretched, completely getting soaked. and i enjoyed it. why? because i knew that jesus was inviting me to embrace the storm and let me find joy in it because we're together.
i know that i tend to run away from storms. i don't like getting wet. but what if i changed my perspective on storms? instead of fearing them, shying away from them - what if i found a way to enjoy them? then when the storms come, they won't be so bad - they'll be good.
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