cleavage! *gasp!*

on friday, i decided to do a little shopping before small group. when i walked into an h&m, there was an employee walking around. i couldn't take my eyes off of her b/c she had on this long dress that had a very "open" top in which, basically, the entire tops of her boobs were exposed. as she walked around, i could see her boobs jiggling around from the movement.

i was shocked! i couldn't believe that an employee was allowed to walk around so unconservatively! =O

it reminded me of an outfit i wore to work earlier this week - it was a tank top with ruffles all down the front of the shirt. by the time i got to work, i realized that gravity was plotting against me, and kept making the ruffles sag down, accidentally causing me to expose more cleavage than i would have preferred. i spent the entire day constantly adjusting my shirt, and watching peoples' eyes to see if they looked below my face level and to my boob level. haha. =P

anyway... i was just shocked at how comfortable some women are with cleavage! i mean, i get it. i see all the magazine covers, the red carpet dresses, the victoria's secret catalogues. guys love seeing sexy clothes. and even though i know it's sexy, i can't get myself to do it too. i just find it so vulnerable!

i think my conservatism comes from my adolescent experiences.

when i was a budding teenager, i went through a bit of a rebellious phase in which i dressed way too sexy/inappropriately for my age. here are some bad outfit choices i made back in the day:

1. i once wore a midriff-baring bellly shirt to church. (yes, it showed my entire belly and belly button!)
2. i used to come to school early in the morning, put on a ton of make up, and then wash it all off before my parents came home from work.
3. for a school dance, i wore a mini-dress - which years later, i discovered was just a long tank top. (i'm so embarrassed!)
4. i used to love anything skin-tight and super short.

what changed all this was one fateful sunday. i wore a red gingham silk scarf around my neck to pretty-up an outfit of mine for church. when i walked down the stairs, my dad took one look at me and made me go change my clothes. he called me a "sool jjeep yujah" which translates in english to "beer-house ho." after that day, i became really conscious about what i wore and not looking like a hooker. and now, i am who i am today.

for all u girls out there - how do you feel about showing cleavage? are you comfortable with it? does it make u feel sexy or uncomfortable?

and for all you guys out there - how do you feel about your own friends and girlfriends and when they expose cleavage. are you uncomfortable or think it's normal?

okay... that's it. i don't think i've written the word "boob" so many times in 1 entry before. hahaha! =)