i have recently begun the harrowing task that everyone dreads- apt hunting. oy... it is a big pain in the (__|__)!!
have any of you guys ever experienced the roller coaster cycle of emotions that apt hunting entails? here's my cycle:
phase 1 - excitement at the prospect of finding a new home! the world is my oyster!
phase 2 - frustration - why is everything so darn expensive?
phase 3 - God will provide! i am filled with hope!
phase 4 - doubt - am i going to have to live in a rat hole for the next year?
phase 5 - no! i WILL find my new home. semi-excited again!
and then the whole process begins again of feeling frustrated, hopeful, doubtful, and determined.
this whole process has reminded me of a story i once read. here it is in a nutshell:
there was a princess who was given the opportunity to pick the best corn among all the land to bring back to her kingdom to start her own corn farm. however, the only rule was that the corn was laid out in a line in front of her. she had to pick one as she went down the line, but she could not turn back once she passed it. so as the princess walked down the line, she saw some great corn, but kept wondering if something better would be further down the line. and lo and behold, when she got to the end of the line, she had picked no corn and had to go home empty handed.
i think a lot about this princess and how she kept thinking, "what if there's a better corn down there? should i keep going? or is what i see right now the best there is out there?" these "what if" questions plague me! i find myself constantly wondering if i lost out on a great apt bc i was hoping something better would be down the line.
i think overall, this line of thinking correlates a lot with my own faith. my inherent nature is very methodical. i make plans, itineraries, and back-up plans. i weigh the pros and cons of everything causing every decision i make to be very well-thought through. but when it comes to apts, and really other major things in life, there's no way to know all the pros and cons bc i just can't know everything. i have to just let go and know that God is taking good care of me, and guiding me as i go. but without a very obvious sign, i'm left walking down the "line of life" not knowing when i should pick up my own "corn."
ahh sigh. i know that i will eventually find an apt, but man, i can't wait to start packing and start a new chapter of life! =) wish me luck everyone!
ps. if anyone knows of a great apt for me, feel free to make my day! =D
