it's been a while since i've written in this thing consistently. life's been busy, and i can't seem to figure out what i want to say before i lose the idea in my head.
so, i'll ramble a little today bc it's a quiet day at work for the first time since august. PTL for that!
lately, i keep dreaming about being in a relationship. i've had several dreams like this already in the past couple of weeks and it keeps happening. *please let these be prophetic dreams. ha!*
one of the dreams, i remember vividly. i was in a secret relationship with this guy. and as we were hanging out among my sg members, no one knew that we were in this secret relationship. it was deliciously fun. when attentions were diverted from us, we would secretly intertwine fingers under the table. we would smile knowing grins at each other. we snuck in quick kisses when no one was looking. he wrapped his hands around my waist when he stood behind me. nobody knew that we were secretly in love - that we were bursting with excitement. it was ours to savor and delight in.
it was thrilling and exhilarating. i had forgotten what it was like to be in the beginnings of a relationship - when everything is electric and new. when a simple touch of a finger can conjure so much happiness and bubbles inside your soul.
when i woke up, i felt a mixture of excitement and sadness. i was still giddy from the elation of being so in love, so wrapped up in this romantic secret. and yet, i was sad bc it was just a dream. i've been wondering why these dreams keep happening. am i longing to be in a relationship? maybe. is something going to happen in the near future? let's cross our fingers!
but in either case, i've felt a need to write these mini stories down. and even recently, i had dinner with a friend who moved away, and as we joked about how maybe she'd find her future mate in this new environment, i easily envisioned her possible love story. and again, i felt the need to write it down, and quickly jotted it down in my notebook for just these kind of creative emergencies. i think my desire to write a love story - one that will touch the hearts of readers everywhere - has been growing and itching to be developed. perhaps it's time i start practicing and flexing those muscles again.
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