soooo... i'm sitting here at work, not doing much work. haha. i'm not a bad employee! there's just no one here.
1. so u wanna know what i got for christmas? i didn't get much, but what i did get, i LOVE. walter got me a new ipod touch!!! it's sooooooo cool!!! i love playing with it. and quite honestly, it makes me feel all fancy and stuff. hahaha. =D plus, now i can stop carrying around my heavy portable dvd player to watch my grey's anatomy dvds. my shoulder thanks you very much walter. and my sister got me a pair of cashmere glittens! finally, i can upgrade my gap kids glittens, to more adult ones. hahaha. ;)
2. i'm starting to appreciate my "young" body more. i'm not sure why, but there's something wrong with my thumb. it hurts to use it, and so i've been depending more on my other fingers and left hand. and it's made me wonder, is this what ppl with arthritis feel? i don't think i have arthritis, but it's definitely something. and i realize, man, something so small - a pain in my thumb, can affect me so much!! i can't peel a tangerine, i hate pushing the space bar, i can't open a can of soda, shampooing takes so much longer, etc!! the list can go on forever. it's really made me feel bad for old ppl who have chronic aches.
and for those of u who don't know, i didn't finish my root canal work back in sept b/c i ran about money in my health insurance. so for the past 3 months, i've only been eating on my right side. it's definitely made life more difficult, and i really value my teeth so much now. seriously, we need to enjoy and take care of our bodies now while we can!!
3. i love beyonce!! i wanna be her!! she's so talented and hot! i wish i could dance like that too!!
4. omgosh, i just discovered google reader. this is gonna be my new time sucker. hahaha. =)
okay... i should attempt to do some work ... or at least look like i am... hahaha. k bye!
Monday, December 29, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Daydreaming...
so i gotta tell ya, i'm a pretty avid daydreamer. there's nothing i like more than to put on my headphones, stare out a window of a bus or subway, and daydream about my "perfect life." i literally spend every minute i'm not thinking about actual stuff, daydreaming - when i'm walking on the sidewalk, when i'm waiting for the subway, when i'm shampooing in the shower, when i eat by myself, anytime!! my brain is never actually here! hahaha.
before walter came along, i constantly daydreamed about my perfect boyfriend - the amazing dates we'd go on, the beautifully romantic words he'd say to me, the outfits i'd wear, (hahaha, i know, so silly!!) and even the jealous reactions of the people around me! hehehe.
but now, i find that i have less stuff to daydream about. i'm pretty content with him ;), that there's no need to daydream about boyfriends anymore! isn't that weird?? so now i've begun to daydream about other things - my wedding day, my future hot shot job, vacations, etc.
but it did make me think - will i ever get to a point where there will be nothing to daydream about? will i ever have everything i want? will i ever feel so satisfied and content with everything in my life that i won't need to daydream about better things? i dunno! maybe it'll be like that in heaven! what's the point of daydreaming, when everything is perfect?
on the one hand, that's a pretty awesome thought, life is so good that u can't even imagine something better. but on the other hand, i like losing myself in my daydreams. i like being able to escape from my sometimes bleak reality, and into this daydream where everything is all i ever hoped for. but then, if i think about it again, if everything were truly perfect - then i think LIVING my life, would be like daydreaming - except it's real!
so ur probably wondering why i'm writing such a random post. well, it's b/c today, while i was walking to work, a woman passed me by, and she had a huge smile on her face. and i kept wondering, what's she smiling about? it's 8:30 in the morning, ridiculously cold, and we're all going to work. and then i realized, maybe she's daydreaming about her perfect man, or maybe she's daydreaming about the vacation she's going to be on in a few hours. and it made me smile to know that God has provided at least our brains to help us endure this world. even amidst horrible conditions, you can always escape for a little while into the amazing world of your imagination. =D
thanks God for my brain. i look forward to the day when i can stop daydreaming, and just be in Heaven with You.
ps. in my daydreams, i'm always super hot and skinny. hahahaha. =D
before walter came along, i constantly daydreamed about my perfect boyfriend - the amazing dates we'd go on, the beautifully romantic words he'd say to me, the outfits i'd wear, (hahaha, i know, so silly!!) and even the jealous reactions of the people around me! hehehe.
but now, i find that i have less stuff to daydream about. i'm pretty content with him ;), that there's no need to daydream about boyfriends anymore! isn't that weird?? so now i've begun to daydream about other things - my wedding day, my future hot shot job, vacations, etc.
but it did make me think - will i ever get to a point where there will be nothing to daydream about? will i ever have everything i want? will i ever feel so satisfied and content with everything in my life that i won't need to daydream about better things? i dunno! maybe it'll be like that in heaven! what's the point of daydreaming, when everything is perfect?
on the one hand, that's a pretty awesome thought, life is so good that u can't even imagine something better. but on the other hand, i like losing myself in my daydreams. i like being able to escape from my sometimes bleak reality, and into this daydream where everything is all i ever hoped for. but then, if i think about it again, if everything were truly perfect - then i think LIVING my life, would be like daydreaming - except it's real!
so ur probably wondering why i'm writing such a random post. well, it's b/c today, while i was walking to work, a woman passed me by, and she had a huge smile on her face. and i kept wondering, what's she smiling about? it's 8:30 in the morning, ridiculously cold, and we're all going to work. and then i realized, maybe she's daydreaming about her perfect man, or maybe she's daydreaming about the vacation she's going to be on in a few hours. and it made me smile to know that God has provided at least our brains to help us endure this world. even amidst horrible conditions, you can always escape for a little while into the amazing world of your imagination. =D
thanks God for my brain. i look forward to the day when i can stop daydreaming, and just be in Heaven with You.
ps. in my daydreams, i'm always super hot and skinny. hahahaha. =D
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